I am a sinner, I admit this openly. I am imperfect, unruly, and irreverant. I do not attend church, nor do I put on any pretenses of being holy.. I do not pray, so much as I talk to God. I tell Him/Her what is on my mind, what troubles me, what I am thinking, and feeling, I thank Him/Her for the good things, the little things, and the big, and I thank Him/Her for the things in my life that help me grow. I ask for help, direction, and advice when I need it, and I find that in some strange way I always get an answer to what I have asked, Sometimes it is not the answer I wanted, or wished for, but it is always the answer I needed. And then I say thank you, whether I get what I wanted, or get what I needed, because really, if someone takes the time to answer you it is only polite to say 'Thank you". After all why would I treat God with any less respect than I have for other people. I let God know that I love Him/Her even if the world seems to be crashing around me, and I feel lost, alone and afraid.
I think of God as a friend, and a compatriot, not some distant untouchable entity filled with vengeance and wroth, blissfully smiting everyone, and anyone who does not agree with Him/Her like some spoiled child on a rampage. To me this warped, and twisted perversion of the being I love seems insulting.....In my world view, God is love, perfect, pure, and unending for all the creatures of the earth. Does this make me a heretic? I suppose it does, and do I blaspheme by believing this? I guess only time will tell. In the meantime I embrace my sinner status, and continue to acknowledge my own imperfections, and I continue to try to do good unto others when I can, protect the creatures of the earth great, and small. Although I know in my heart I will never achieve perfection, it does not mean that I will ever cease to strive to do good.